or, as it is more accurately called, "babbling". About unrelated things

1. Karen's entry today struck a chord with me (not the podcasting part). It's something I need to remember, a saying I need to own. (Sidenote: I want a Superhero necklace. Chlorine, please.) Maybe a mantra I chant, to remind myself to let things be? A sign I put up in my cube? (The cube, it needs decorating.) On the fridge, definitely.

2. I was talking to TRgirl tonight about how I am thinking about switching therapists. For a long time, my therapist has been fixated on my need for cleanliness and order. Which, yes, I like things neat and clean, but vacuuming twice a week when I have two cats is not ridiculous. She had the insight that perhaps we are now working on things that I am uncomfortable with. This is true- what we are currently working on is uncomfortable. Uncomfortable because I am doing what I need to do for me, but it is causing me to feel guilty. About things I should not feel guilty about, but I do. Sometimes doing what I need to do for me is difficult because of this. I'm not sure exactly how to handle it.

3. I think that I learn something from every guy I've dated. Recently, I learned not to tell them about the blog, because then when you break up with them, they can read it every day for 3 months. Which is kinda freaky. The most recent allowed me to face something that's been kicking around in the back of my mind for a while now- something tough, something I didn't want to think about, but something I needed to confront. (He's still a jackass, though.)

4. Why does my iPod insist on all the Sarah McLachlan?